So like since before Christmas, I’ve been having this really weird dream where I have a gun, and I somehow manage to shoot myself straight through the head, like just completely through my brain. I don’t die or anything though, I’m fine, except there’s a big hole in my head, and you can see all the way through it. But I’m walking about doing all my normal stuff and everything’s okay, and people are noticing the big hole in my head and asking if I’m alright, but I just keep saying oh I’ll be fine, but then it gets quite late and I really want to go to sleep, but when I try to lie down, all of my blood starts pouring out the hole in my head, and I end up really annoyed at cause I’m really tired, so I go to some people (I don’t know who any of them are) and ask them to take me to the hospital so that I can get it sorted, but it doesn’t matter who I ask, nobody’ll take me.

I haven’t had this dream at all for the last week, and I was wondering what had made it stop.

I seen somebody on tumblr had searched the meaning of their dream earlier, and tbh I’m not sure if I actually believe in anything like that but I thought well you never know, I’ll have a look and see what mine means! So I did, and it is scarily accurate.

It says that my state of mind is not quite right, something is missing, some aspect of my life is out of control, I’m feeling attacked/victimised, I’m wishing to gain power and control, I am feeling weak, and tired of dealing with a particular situation, something is sapping all of my energy, and that I need help, but don’t know where to go for it.

School’s been stressing me out so much in this last wee while, I’ve always left my homework far too late and I’ve just totally struggled through most of the work since the summer. It was actually making me feel really crap and unhappy, and I just wanted to sort it all out, but I didn’t have the willpower to actually do anything at all.

This last week, Ive decided that there’s no way I’m going to get anywhere if I don’t just get a move on and actually try to sort it all out. I’ve stayed on top of my homework all week, I’ve ben going to stuff for help straight after school and at lunchtimes, and I’ve actually been revising for my exams, even though they’re months away. I actually feel like I understand stuff better already, and I’m managing my homework and stuff a lot better now too.

And ever since my dream’s stopped! Freaky, eh? I guess dreams really are trying to tell you things.

I realise that this was way too long and nobody will have read it, but whatever. I wanted to write it, so there.